Well I suppose it's time for an update...but I'm mainly posting because I have an essay due in a few hours and I feel an incredible urge to procrastinate :) In life news I'm graduating in about two weeks YAY! I got accepted to a bunch of places for an MA but I ended up choosing Guelph because they offered me about 13 grand to go which I thought was a pretty sweet deal. I already know a few ppl at Guelph, including Sara of course, so hopefully it'll be a nice, easy transition :) Apparently my supervisor is a doll too according to ratemyprofessor.com so I really can't wait to get a chance to meet her.

I was reading over my last post and I figured I should probably post an update on the Mike situation. Well things got better near the end of the summer and then shitty again by Christmas so we broke up in January. It was actually a pretty smooth breakup. We just talked in his car till like 5 am one night and finally decided to go on a break which a couple of weeks later turned into a break up. Honestly when we first broke up I had NO intention of ever going back out with him again. The way I saw it, he'd treated me like shit for the better part of a year and I was more than willing to put that all behind me and just MOVE ON. Well about a month later I got asked out on a date by a long time guy friend of mine. He's a nice guy, graduate, decent looking, all that stuff so I said okay. So over reading week he and I went on a date and it was pretty good.

At this point Mike and I were still talking a lot. Even though we were broken up we pretty much talked every day. There wasn't any animosity there, though there really could have been on my part, but we both just wanted to stay friends so that's what we were. He's been my best friend for 5 years so broken up or not I didn't want to lose that part of our relationship. Everyone told me that I shouldn't tell Mike about my date because he didn't have a right to know about that part of my life anymore. I suppose that arguement makes sense, but me being highly drugged up on endocet after having my wisdom teeth removed decided that I had to tell him.

So out of that conversation I discovered two things, the first being that he had already gone on a date (and two weeks after we broke up no less!) and the other being that he wanted to talk about getting back together. Needless to say I wasn't impressed. He had what...two months by this time to mention to me that he was thinking of getting back together but instead he waits until I've started seeing someone else to mention anything?

Well anyways, after three weeks straight of badgering on his part and a couple more dates with my friend I decided to give him another shot. I'm not a sucker for punishment honestly! I would never have considered getting back with him if he was the same way towards me as he was before. He has made a complete change, back to the way he was when we first started going out and it's really amazing. When I look at him now I see the affection for me in his eyes and that was something I hadn't seen in so long before. We had so much fun going on dates together, even before we officially got back together, that it was like things were just meant to be.

I was really impressed by the way that he analyzed out relationship and evaluated what is important to him. For instance I was adament that I wanted to live with someone before I marry them which before now was something he was completely opposed to. Now he's talking about how he wants to buy a house for himself in a few years and then turn it into a home studio and then if I'm still in Canada he said he would want me to come live with him.

Another thing too...before when he would talk about getting jobs and stuff he made out like he could only get jobs down in the States or BC. He didn't even think about getting jobs close to home, or if he did he never mentioned it to me. Then when he would talk to me about it, it was as if he just assumed I would drop everything in my life and come with him. Now he's looking for jobs in Toronto or the GTA and even though he knows he could get jobs out in BC he says he's not interested in them right now because he has me to consider too and since I'll be at Guelph next year there's no way I could go out there with him. To me that's such a huge change. The fact that he's actually considering how I will factor into his future is like night and day to how things were at this time last year.

Things have been really amazing so far and I'm really happy how they've worked out. My family is still kind of skeptical, especially my sister, but I know that as long as he keeps treating me the way he has and our relationship stays strong then they'll come around eventually. Bottom line is that I love him and now I know he loves me too. The way things are going I can see a future with him now. I just really hope out relationship stays strong now that we both know what we have to lose if it doesn't.